I have said this many, many times before: I hate winter.
I hate being cold all the time, and I hate the freezing rain, and I hate that there are an average of three hours of sunshine in any given day. After months of a pretty constant summer, chilly winters are a short sharp shock to the system. Or rather, a lingering rainy/snowy shock that will last until approximately March 31st. I wish I could find clear sunlight on longer evenings, and put aside hats and scarves and the restrictive layers of winter in favor of sneakers and t-shirts and the freedom of being sleeveless. I wish I could sit outside in the garden until midnight and listen to Sigur Ros under the night sky.
All these wishes, then, and to what end? These are all future things, things that will be when summer arrives. In the mean time, I will be buying thermals and lighting the fire each night, watching films after dinner and remembering to eat my greens. After all, now is the time for hibernation and cocooning and early nights. With spring comes daylight and sun and no sleeves.
I know haven’t blogged in a while. The beginning of this blog was a whim on a late night. I don’t think I even knew what blogging was, only that countless strangers were writing online and I could snatch glances into their lives. Some days I don’t know why I bother blogging at all because somewhere on the other side of the world, and somewhere just down the road, there are people saying the same things that I am saying and having the same ideas that I am having and it all gets a little bit repetitive and unoriginal in here. Then I remember that I love the story-telling part of all of this, and I love the little online community made up entirely of people who love it to. There are some things I am infinitely proud of scattered through the archives. More importantly there are memories knitted through those archives as well, things I am overjoyed to read time and again. So if I ever begin to get upset about the fact that not many people read blogs anymore, I remind myself that while my blog isn’t overflowing with views, I still have gained so much from starting it. At the end of the day, this blog really is for me and my personal growth as a person and as a writer. Viewers are just the people holding my hand along the way. I apologize for not blogging in a bit, but know that I appreciate every single one of you and have been keeping a whole journal of blog post ideas to share with you.
So, what has been going on in my life? To say it’s been a roller coaster would be an understatement. With final exams and a whole lot of balancing unruly emotions, I have survived and can taste freedom dripping off my tongue. I am now on winter break for the next 3.5 weeks and I plan on doing everything that will benefit me and nothing that will cause my mind to twist and turn. I do hate the winter, yes, but I will do everything I can to fight the winter blues, such as:
- 1. Exposing myself to sunlight as early in the morning as I can. I want to maximize the number of hours I experience daylight. I am going to wake up early and rip open my curtains, slightly fooling my mind that the weather is bright and that winter is warm.
- 2. Embracing it by building a snowman, working on my winter photography, blasting holiday music, or going skiing, ice skating, sledding, and tubing.
- 3. Breaking out of a rut. In winter, where every day seems cloudy and cold, its easy to fall into an impossible routine. I will shake things up with ease, by wearing a bright and bold color of makeup (I did recently purchase mauve lipstick!), styling my hair a totally new way, or by reaching out to an old friend.
- 4. Start my mornings off with a hot breakfast.
- 5. Keep myself preoccupied with all the things and hobbies I enjoy doing as much as possible. I plan on making homemade Christmas gifts this year, so that’ll take my mind off of the cold.
- 6. Accept the season. Even though winter may not seem so terrific, it brings a lot of things. The joy of the holiday season is carried throughout the season. Sledding, snowball fights, snowmen, hot chocolate, Christmas movies, and roaring fires simply aren’t the same in the starching heat of August.
As the month carries on, I will have much more time to post about the journeys December carries me on as well as the many thoughts, stories, and struggles I have faced and will face. November was one of the hardest months for me, and I can still feel its blow. I’m trying my hardest to be optimistic and to not let my wounds open up again, but it can get pretty rough sometimes. This December, I want to patch all my holes and bandage all my scratches and scrapes. I want to relax and enjoy this holiday season as well as begin January with a feeling of contentment. I miss that feeling. As 2014 approaches, I will write about my plans for the new year, but for now, I will end with this.
I am going to make myself a hot cup of tea and snuggle up under copious amounts of blankets with a good book. I haven’t been able to read for pleasure in such a long time.
Have a beautiful evening lovely readers!