Here I am, so young and full of energy, and I’m stuck in Ohio, wasting hours of precious youth slaving away behind a desk full of books. I want to live. I want to travel, which doesn’t seem very attainable of a dream because all my money is going to feeding my education, which is supposed to eventually land me a job where I can spend even more time slaving away to pay off my debt, buy a place of my own, fund my wedding, and give my kids a good life so that they can go to college. It’s a vicious cycle. I’m tired of living a life ruled by money. I want to be free.
Does this sound familiar? Do thoughts similar to these surface in your mind?
I have spent excessive time devoted to being upset about my life and attributing the cause of my “mediocre, pathetic” life to society instead of accepting the blame myself.
I have full control of my life. I am not going to disregard the rant aforementioned because it is most definitely applicable to the way our world works, but I have to stop blaming and start taking control.
Last night, I realized how much I am jeopardizing my own happiness by getting worked up about how unfair society is. I need to take the emotions and energy feeding my pessimistic demons and turn them into motivation and optimism to live my life, to create my story.
I want to live the adventure that is life. I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself, feeling pathetic, and feeling like my life is mediocre. I want to have fun! I want to live the adventure that is my life.
I always make myself upset because there are people climbing Mount Everest, eating crêpes in France, kissing their lover under the stars in Greece, or going sailing in the Pacific Ocean, and my wanderlust-stricken heart, my travel bug infected skin craves to be on the move.
I am quite fortunate and blessed, however; I have traveled to a handful of states (New York, the District of Columbia, Texas, Michigan, Illinois, Missouri, Pennsylvania) and a scattering of countries (Canada, Spain, France, Italy, Dubai, Syria, Lebanon). I plan on studying abroad at some point in my college career as well.
See, Laurie! *slaps self in the forehead* You have been places! Heck, some people haven’t even left the state they live in! Regardless, a life full of travel would be incredible—a travel writer, a wildlife photographer, anything.
But I’ve learned that I don’t need to leave the state to go on vacation, or travel the world to life a fulfilling life. (Check out this awesome article: How to Go on a Vacation without Actually Going Anywhere)
One of my biggest fears is boredom. Boredom comes from a boring mind. In the words of G.K. Chesterton, “There are no uninteresting things, only uninterested people.” Yesterday, I spent some time after dinner searching the internet for things to do in Cleveland over the summer. I was dancing for joy when I found an article with 365 things to do in Cleveland year round, and even more excited when I found the endless possibilities the Cleveland Metroparks has to offer.
I may not get the chance to travel the entire world, but I can hike up a mountain and feel on top of the world. I may not get the chance to scuba dive in Hawaii, but I can scuba dive in freshwater all around my area. I may not physically build houses for the homeless, but by volunteering for Wigs for Kids, I am changing the lives of people all around the world by simply donating my time. I may not eat crêpes in France, but I can make homemade crêpes with my loved ones while speaking in a poorly executed French accent. I may not kiss a lover under the stars in Greece, but I can kiss my boyfriend below the same exact stars right where I am at now.
Learn a new language, or even bits and pieces of many languages. The possibilities are endless with the Internet and our fantastic libraries. Get a summer job to keep yourself busy. I did. Today was my first day of work at TGI Friday’s. I had an absolute blast engaging with my guests and coworkers and knowing that even though it is a great deal of work, the valuable people skills and experiences I will gain will be remarkably rewarding (…and the paycheck ;).
Don’t be afraid to make the first move or take initiative. Spend time with people you don’t hang out with often. Expand your boundaries. Feed your mind. Laugh a little too loud. Get out of the house. Greet the outdoors. Don’t be afraid! Don’t let fear be the chain that leaves you bound and hinders you from reaching your full potential.
This article on living in the moment is absolutely perfect. It mentions the two most important words that my yoga guide taught me: mindfulness and notice.
I have to make the best of what I have. And what I have is pretty damn great. All I had to do what search. I can’t except the universe to just knock on my door and hand me a pamphlet of ways to enjoy the city I live in and the life I have. I need to stop trash talking Ohio (sorry lil’ fella), and realize that there are pages and pages of things to do, such as go to music festivals, art shows, restaurants, botanical gardens, castles, and events, or cliff dive, learn archery techniques, play sand volleyball, go swimming, etcetera, etcetera, etcetera. (Things to Do This Spring & 100 Reasons Summer Is My Favorite Season)
Ask yourself: “How can I set myself free today?” “How can I live my adventure?” “How can I make today the best day?”
Be brave with your life. We are living our adventure. I’m so thankful for living exactly as I want to. This is my story.
What is yours?